a Memory.

Hmm~~ Today, while looking through some pics that a friend posted from an event that happened where I used to live, I was filled with a somewhat sadness; a bit of a Disappointment,,~~ That I had missed out on Good Times..~

This is not something New, or the first time I've felt it~ But it always bears the same suffocating pressure on my lungs, like the whole universe was crushing down on my chest.~ It was was borderline intoxicating.

I just had this realization of sorts, though I wasn't "realizing" anything new.~ Time does go by "faster or slower", you just absorb more Enjoyment in that time period which seems to have Flown by~
For instance, just 4 minutes ago, I realized it has been an hour since I went on break, but it literally feels like I looked up from the clock, to look back down and read an hour later.~

To touch back on what was mentioned earlier, I've started to Remiss the past (particularly the people & places which had brought out those happy memories), and now this is becoming painful; like a Christmas memory before a great tragedy... the last time you saw that loved-one before they fell through the thin ice, to their sombre, watery Grave..~

Memories kill.~