matter: Blaspheme me.~

I feel like I want to eat your flesh; not in a happy or lustful, passionate, or loving way,
But in the plain context; to actually puncture you and cause you a sensation; the sensation of fear... Fear for your life!

I'm not a murderer, but I have felt murderous. I've never killed a man, but I have brooded over it's steps on more than one occasion.. toward more than one person.~

IF I wanted to sleep with death, and I wanted to give it away as well; does that make it OK? Doesn't that follow the Gold Rule? To "do unto others" as you would wish it happen to you?~ If you like pain, does that give you the right to give it away? If you want death to find you, can you help other's find theirs? ..interesting I say..~

The whole, "Love your neighbor" could be just as nicely turned, Hate thy neighbor as you hate yourself.~

That could very well be a way to go through everything, and still retain your morality; If you wish all your evil upon yourself!


There could be some Mutal form of Russian roulette, where two people who hated eachother enough, that they'd be willing to give their own life to take that of the other; where they each had a 1-bullet gun, or other weapon of Instant and assured DEATH pointed at the flesh of the other~ And, mutaully pungled into the bullet or blade of the other with hatred, and happiness~ To look into the eyes of Death, and their own bitterly hated foe, the one they hated enough to indirectly Murder themselves in exchange for their Life.~


We're living by the rules of the ancients; the laws of a dead age.~ Were they really any better off than we are now? Are we well off? Does one evil repeated not create the same again? Do we follow in the footsteps of some unlearned lesson? Or re-live a story that went terribly wrong, but we still play by the same rules that hinder us to our own defeat... again, again, and again!

I cant let that happen.. I cant sit and which the repeated demise of man, just because of some flawed ideal; maybe not flawed at the time, but in a modern setting, which is based off of Change, and evolution, how can we not but create a new and shiny 10 commandments??


I've realized I have no Balance.~ Everything in me has to be either all out, or all in, no in between, no appropriation..



I really don't believe in being "Happy",, or even in "Saddness".. You should be neither, and that way You (yourself) is the sole being in control. Not your emotional imbalance (with the house of the higher; the author of all your creativeness). Have both, like salt & pepper, in each hand to add at will, and to restrain at taste.~
Live your life Al Dente.~ To the taste,, to the touch.~ To the pure, it's pure, and impure.~