Yesterday; July 10Th, 2010, my official birthday.
Went to work at 9:00am, or more like, got there at 8:43am, to Start work at 9:00am.
Had my food prepared ahead of time, so I was semi-early, compared to usual~ which I try to keep within a 15 or 10min before-work schedule.
Work was quite uneventful; actually stayed an extra hour, till 6:00pm.
After which, I went home to drop off my bag, which I carry my French-press coffee maker, my coffee, water bottle, sugar etc.
Now; though I haven't done this chronologically, I must say, from 8:00pm - now all seems like a chapter of a story~ a Cause & Effect cycle..
I needed to hit up the beer store for my Pre-drink with Melissa & Jon before we went out to the Barking Frog that night.
I figured, hey, I'm kina tired. I'll get the drinks now, since they close early, come home & nap for a bit. But~
In between this, I caught part of the Germany vs Uruguay game of the afternoon. [Incriminating Content:]
Before I continue, I must make a statement:~ I have a very mixed view on Contraband substances. Drugs. I've used them; I've abused them. I use them. I abuse them.
I'm not for them; I'm not against them.
I don't think we "need" them~ I don't think it's a Necessity to help us survive.
We don't need them, but we shouldn't be forced into their arms because of a world were Happiness needs to be Sought, and not offered. Bought & Sold like sugary drinks, and not a flower u can pick from an open field of wild beauty & pureness.
I'm not naturalist, or Pagan tree-worshipper. I'm no religionist. I feel, and I follow.
7:45pm:
In my room, I decided to smoke a Dube. I mixed it with a cigg I bummed off of Greg on my way home from Marmora, rolled, and walked over to my window, cuz I was just too lazy & uninterested to go downstairs. It was brought daylight, and I figured it would just be a buzz to chillax to get me calmed after a week of work. That's not actually true,, i just put it there cuz I really don't know WHAT I was thinking..
I started to smoke, filling my lungs with that well known poison. By the 4Th drag, I started to feel her effect..~ The buzz of life began to seem more,, Smooth~ the ruff edges were smearing away..~
Then,, like a ton of bricks, it hit me~ This is whats destroying the world..
This is whats Ruining the world! And like the smoke clouds of the world had been moved, and the clear blue sky was revealed, I saw: We are polluting our self, Inside & Out, to our own soot-filled Graves. We're smoking ourselves to death~ in every way shape & form..
What is the problem with the world? Why is it such a horrid, corroded, pound of rotting flesh~~~? Its because of YOU. You are ruining the world by not realizing its YOU who is doing it.
It's not the Big corporations. It's not the "World Powers". It's not some sleazy scum-bag, or some silly school system. ITS YOU for Letting the elements of life get away with it. Its all YOU; you aren't doing ANYTHING to stop it. Why aren't you? Why haven't you??
Why Haven't YOU changed the world???
Why haven't YOU made a difference? Is it cuz you DON'T want to? You DON'T want a better world? A better place, a better LIFE; a Utopian universe?
Is it that you don't want to, Physically? Or is it ur ingenious Mind,, that's actually ur own worst enemy. That's a fruity line, that's been abused more than white choirboy's behinds... But its true~ ur mind Tells u how u feel; even when ur body does not think so~.
I honestly think the only way to make a real Change to this world; this society, is either in little installments, like slowly injecting poison to make your body adapt to it, or... To Slam it head on, instantly, full out, and radically Alter everything~ go all out, and Jump off the cliff into the blue abyss of the driving tide.~ It all in your hands. You are the Power of the universe~ Understanding is the only real power.. which is why so many of us are unempowered~ We're weak because We don't wanna be anything, we don't know anything else, and we've been raise in a mire, a sewage drain, that has been painted white and Rosy red, but still the ecoli of the world is seeping into our veins, worse than the heroin that cripples a generation of free thinkers and riotous leaders who could have risen up and change the scene of the Play called life, instead of injecting a "new world" into their blood stream.
Why dream, watch, or think of a Perfect world??
Why not CREATE one~ Together. You and me baby,~ Its you and me.
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